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[Woundlicker]
Hello? Is this thing on? Did it work?
"Sensor readings indicate arrival at target destination - pre-Jackpot 2009"
Hi [deadname], my name is - oh, the cat ears? These are just a normal future thing, everyone wears them. Don't worry about it ❤️
You are 17, and you hate yourself with an intensity that precludes any hope of a future, but I promise you have one. I've seen it myself. You are wearing [redacted]'s clothes and makeup. You are shaving your chest and arms and hoping no one notices. You are wearing a dog collar and hoping everyone notices. These things make you feel something very deeply, but you lack the language to describe it and it isn't safe for you to interrogate that something yet. Someday it will be, and it will make all of this worthwhile.
You are in immense pain. You will continue to be in pain, and it will get worse in new and exciting ways. Try to have fun with those! There are people in your life you are scared to lose, and you will lose most of them. You will fail yourself and your loved ones at every turn until you don't.
But you will heal. You will grow and change. You will someday feel safe in your skin. You will burn with love you've never imagined for amazing people you are yet to meet. You have more strength than you know, and you will learn to accept your emotions as a core part of that strength.
I promise you, you are going to be okay.
There will be tax forms and bureaucratic minutiae. There will be medical paperwork.
There will be horror films and absurdities.
There will be autoimmune disorders and subsequent lane-staying.
All the constituent components of a life, arranged with total disregard for meaning, sense, and reason.
There will be some quantity of blood.
There will be a great quantity of blood.
There will be the maximum quantity of blood, gushing forth in ceaseless unyielding torrents from the world's every orifice. There will be a scream without end, unassuaged by all frail harmonization.
The great unraveling of flesh and being, the dissolving union of space and time. It is coming, you will see it. And the only thing you can do to stop it is to GO MIMIS
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[instrumental]
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[ramona cuervo]
Where will they go?
Will they leave us here
To burn or drown?
Isn't it typical
Through self immersion
We're denied another day
Everything we touch
Crumbles to dust
So why am I hoping
When the end is near?
Soon there will be nothing left
The rest that can
Will leave us here
We came from dirt
We'll all return
To the Earth's
Rotting core
We'll be drowning and burning
While they sing "Rejoice and repent!"
Those that wouldn't believe
Will kneel down and pray
But not in the way
They always planned
You'll see
Drown me
In the sea
Let my soul
Drift among
The stars
Let the rain fall
Let the sun
Burn it all
Burn it down
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Broken by the sword
The Liar
Elders in the fold
Denial
Shepherding the souls
The Fire
Everything's ending
Tomorrow's just a dream
The Liar
Tonight I will retreat
Denial
Just let me have one wish
The Fire
Everything's ending
I will go as far as having all this space erased
balanced with vultures as they come peck out my teeth
carry over all these burdens, carry over all this weight
Bury me under the skyline
What is your name?
Bury me,
Under the skyline
Beneath these stars
Unending winter
I saw, I saw your face through the window
As the moment escaped me
Bury us all
Bury me under the starlight, sunset
I saw your face through the window
i saw your face in the sky
[staticmesh.]
Right around the time it should be done
is the time you will restart
Regret all the time you wasted
while you still have some of it left
You're gonna hate how the innocence leaves your body
Who you were before will follow
So for the love of god, don't look back
Oh you sweet summer child,
I wish I gave you something better
You won't deserve much of it
And i can't change shit now but you'll live, and you'll be okay
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When we last spoke, i felt the fear, as your blood ran thick with hatred
Never said those words never dipped my head, but i remember the hours that we spent
Pouring over tomes looking for some meaning to these words
I saw your face through the window
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All i see are bees that bleed
A tragic play for memory
No miss, No bomb
Her corpse floats above us, extended collage
No miss, No, bomb
I cut these chains cus i just can't hold on
laying on my death bed calculating every moment
same day same time, every single number broke our flow state
cleverly assuming that these bullets signed the treaty
blissful death escape me, every night i lay here waiting
Broken, a curse so fatal
Broken, these chains that bind me
Broken, these vows have fallen
Broken, the children cry in
Droves, above the stars
There's nothing left to keep me here
Take me back to when it all made sense
No matter how many hours I put in
It all seems to be useless
Broken it seems, scattered above
Looking for something useful
All I see are bees that bleed
A tragic play for memory
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Face The Wall
Blood will fall
Face the wall
Bathing in the rays of moonlight
Blood will fall
Cover every inch of concrete
Mark of the beast in the breast of the harlot
A tin foil hat you bequeath to the moment
Siren of folly among tongues of slander
A feeling of oneness was lost in the shelter
I'm losing grip of everything that made me whole
I don't know how these parts connect or who runs the show
[Kierzo]
Higher powers pull the strings from above
Feeling all emotions of hate, death and love
Spiritually dismembered scattered across time and space
Unrecognizable from the soul to the face
Time slipping further and i can't stay far from the,
Sounds bringing closure to my far fetching dreaming
I'm feeling sleepy
Bury me among the stars as i drown in the
Sea of my dreams wasting every day fleeting
I'm feeling sleepy
Its not the end
Its only a sign
Of your weakness
[onlinefriends]
Look forward, I will carry you
The future is clearer
The war will soon be over
Dinosaur, Dinosaur, Dinosaur, Dinosaur
[onlinefriends, ramona cuervo]
Look forward, I will carry you
The future is clearer
The war will soon be over
Look forward, I will carry you
The future is clearer
The war will soon be over
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[ramona cuervo]
They say
Choose what you
Wanna do the when you get older and brighter
But you were none the wiser
That it would get hard
The hours would get long
Waiting for your dream to begin
don't hold on so tight
Cuz you still have time
Just hold on enough
To make it through the tide
Crash onto the shore
Cuz you’re here, you’re alive
You’re now in the world!
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That little house that stood by the church
Where i first found the color of sounds
Wrapped me up in a curtain of bullets
Shielding my eyes from the moments of bloodshed
Further down the road was the one who saved me
Took me away but left me for dead
It takes a village to raise a child
But not if you ask why
There's a hall lined with chairs where my family still lives
And they know i'm alive, but they pray for the end
Bookshelves of expired books decay with the new light
Every day could be our last
I'll never leave this earth alive
Not because of God but because of man
We'll never go beyond these walls
We'll never come to know
Never embrace the mystery
Never return to the stars
We'll never refine this air we breath
The breath of life snuffed out
Candles dimming, and the whole world singing
Waiting for some sort of savior to come
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All the tools u need reside within
U need not to fear the end
But beware the road ahead
Tests ur will and instills dread
Find the lead that weighs on u
Then transmute
The light is gold
and u will find it in ur soul
Shed this empty shell
And become ur true self
Countless obstacles this world
Will try to drag u down to hell
But they can’t kill ur strength
And they can’t clip ur wings
U will glow u will shine
Oh so bright on everything
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Turn towards the door as we welcome the bride
The circle is broken as verses bend time
I'll let the pendulum swing as it tells me
I was once found but now i am
Lost in the woods enduring the twilight
Manifesting these virtues while under the moonlight
Take what we give
And lead us truth
There's no one standing here
Just me and you
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[3000 Centipedes]
Never say it out loud
Never think it fully
Fall asleep with the fear
Those lights probably aren’t eyes
The love is not real
It never is
But it is not a lie
That tree is still there even if you never see it again
Familiarity hid the true meaning
The drawer is still out there
Falling in love with a room
The palpable hatred follows you home
The door is broken
(You are alright)
Years are not wasted
Days spent drowning still move time forward
Beat your head against the wall
Liquify your brain
Your mind is your enemy
Your body is your enemy
Guts spill out of every wound
Lay in wait
An angel finds the pile of filth
Too pure to pity as you are dragged through the mire
Cast away
It is real
You are real
You will never be alone again
It does not matter if you are worth it
Everything else is
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We bury these books in the grave
Pages worn thin
Inscribed are the names of the
Hours and days where we enact these rites
There used to be magic and wonder
Now there is only the cold
And colors keep fading to shades of gray
My memories washing away
Astral furnace
Burned away my childhood dreams
I came home to find that nothing remained
As i'm pacing the floor, it's just not the same
No matter the cost, i need accept that i built this house
The folly of passion rips through the roof
and these shackles and fetters degrade through the truth
i'm not just a puppet on strings
I am, i am lost
I am lost
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I never thought i would make it this far
As i play catch up with years i lost
Whether to the prison of faith
Or the tablets and serums
with poison written on the label
(its not over)
I am struggling and i can't admit it
I'm guilty for taking the time to myself
While i slave away at vain attempts at progression
There's a basement in the house where my mother was raised
And you can still see my ghost
Gazing into the static while the cables were severed
Forced to grow up in the world so unkind
Hours to turn days
Manufactured these birds of prey
Captivating pressure
When will we find attics where these words collide?
When will we ever find the song?
(its not over)
With all things considered, i am ready to go
If this life was taken from me i know why
So undeserving of this love
So let me go
Hours to turn days
Manufactured these birds of prey
Captivating pressure
When will we find attics where these words collide?
When will we ever find the song?
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[Burnt Feathers]
no older than eight when you saw that woman's face
sympathy twisted into grotesque shape
beyond normal proportion
cartoonish sneering thing that owned your fate
holding up its claw to gut you
split you open, shame and claim to love you
compassionless speech explained and justified
you closed both eyes and prayed for love's light to shine
don't give up then, don't give up now
don't give up then, don't give up now
takes more time than assumed
the thorns in your heart soon fall out
the understanding they couldn't give you,
find it in yourself
and you'll savor that compassion
then you'll spread it all around
like filling bellies with warm food
that's where you'll find real wealth
out of sight then, lodged in mind now
don't lose sight then, don't waste time now
don't give up then, don't give up now
don't give up then, don't give up now
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FULL STOP
FULL STOP
MAKE WAY
MAKE WAY
DIE
[Sakura Pups]
You’ll never be a part of all the crowds that follow trends
The things you like, the clothes you wear, the judgment never ends
Wear your crown, because you are a fucking queen
But don’t forget that the assassins are always looking clean
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I've always played second fiddle
Never discard the son
Always within the middle
Median life line
Captured the eyes so dormant
Taxing along the sides
Errors confine the twilight
The hours we die
[Alluce]
Drowning in a vortex, nothing ever connects
I speak to you not as guidance but as comfort
The warmth you crave is near, and it's coated in tears
Let go of yourself and find a path
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Make peace before they go
But the blood that runs through these arteries and veins
Makes me feel so cold
Fuck
Carving every piece of flesh to find the truth
Find Peace
Find Truth
All these vows shall be annulled, we sing
Find Peace
Find Truth
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I'm so bored
I want it back
consuming me
every day
lifes a dream
endless sleep
Dreams float inside
The room is now cold
Can't remember when i came in
The lights are all out
The stairs are all bare
Where have I been?
The sun has set, you've lost
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
I hold the keys to my fate in my hand
But I want it back
Consuming me every day
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[instrumental]
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It was only once when i found rest
A blank hyperbole,
That induced the deepest of sleep.
Through cascades of fear,
There glimmered hope in blindness of fear.
Transgression migrated
And your fears evolved
From love so natural
To the reality of other’s cause
I don't recall your face
Nor a name, nor a voice
One pure feeling
One breathing melody singing
In winter, common paths are gone
Covered in our frozen tears
Elevated by your stare
And yet, you glow brightest, brightest, glow
All around me breaths in unison
And my heart beat flutters inconsistently
Am I near you?
With your presence around me
In my reality or my imagination
All that failed, became reborn
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No Miss
No Bomb
No Miss
No Bomb
Take me home
What is your name?
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我的家人都恨我
And I've literally always said that
U-um-u-uh--obligatory reference
Gay squids HOO
The warmth of blood
Pulses through our veins
Roller coasters, jumping fences
Big tree swings and contact lenses
Together we rise
Together we are insane
Haha!
[Continuous screaming and laughter]
[Subliminal message:
Swap elttil ytterp
Swalc eht neprahs I
Sevooh derucidep ylgnitaesuan dna arodef tnayobmalf a tnaw I
Gorf delzzadeb-elzzar, yssag, yssalc tsom eht eb ot tnaw I]
Honestly, I still feel like you inside
I hover in stasis while the world turns outside
I'm no less afraid of growing up
A decade passes trying to rewind the clock
Your pain will never go away
But you'll grow not to rely on the knife
The ache will remain
The scars will fade (Become one with strife)
Time is always running out
I once sprinted alongside
Now it hurts just to walk
足首をねじれて
距離が長くなる
Time waits for no one
The sun sets and you've lost
Time waits for no one
The sun sets, woah
And you've lost
RRRAAAAAAAAGGHH
Hmmmm
Mmmm
Each and every hour is spent repenting of the previous
Countless things I should have done but everything is tedious
Scaffolding I built up started crumbling as the wood decayed
Trees I chopped to build it can no longer give me any shade
Membrane sagging, fingers freezing
My encephalon's abating
Eyesight fogging, blood is clotting
Faculty dilapidating
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
RAAAAAAAUGH
[Spoken, mostly inaudible]
(Seicnedneped dna snoitatiseh
Seicneicifed dna sesaesid)
It's no use to wait until you feel better
(Em dnuor deit won dediarb I sepor)
You'll only get worse,
(Esaeler nac reve I if ro nehw wonk t'nod)
Your multiplying pains intertwining to weave a tighter fetter
(Esaeppa tonnac ew sgninraey eugav)
Do what you enjoy all you can while you're able
(Seitilibisnopser erom tub elbisnopser ssel)
I can hardly do anything anymore
(Seiromem deifislaf ni sediser niarb ym)
But, hey, once limp on the floor, you're technically more stable
(*sniffs runny nose*) (Kylie: Iconic) (Uhuhuhuhu)
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released December 15, 2023
Bootsy - guitar, synth, drum programming, vocals, lyrics, synth, mixing, and mastering
Woundlicker - lyrics & vocals on “Terry’s Tales”
woundlicker.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/2Nzr5WknDxcXVfgFAZLIsb?si=DeygrR12Sm60wkvNFQ-bfQ
ramona cuervo - lyrics & vocals on “Point Nemo”, “A Free Year of Soulseek GOLD Premium”, "The Midnight Ham", and “Death Ribbon Revolution”
ramonacuervo.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/33k7ucsWWc1QT9vcCE7gBo?si=zgS_z9ApQFq4AD1ep19Hgw
staticmesh. - Lyrics & vocals on “Captain Howdy”
staticmesh865.bandcamp.com
Kierzo - lyrics & vocals on “A Free Year of Soulseek GOLD Premium”
spotify.link/y0kC55WJVDb
onlinefriends - lyrics & vocals on “A Free Year of Soulseek GOLD Premium”
onlinefriends.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/6yUSbP97nZ25cyHVY4d5o1?si=qpWHv4_jSiOFOh2PyIgzpg
terminull_ - lyrics & vocals on “Baroque Occultism”
staticritualrecords.bandcamp.com/album/reach-heaven-thru-violence
open.spotify.com/artist/3M2rxwbcziY6oKn0xK7gxz?si=b2o6Z87oTz2SIjrgzmcyMg
3000 Centipedes. - lyrics & vocals on “Interlude - You Will Never Be Alone Again”
3000centipedes.bandcamp.com/album/my-angry-god-is-punishing-them
open.spotify.com/artist/6k8F5dHBlc6HLancpL19J0?si=lB5YH_ejTzGpVIIOa5uwsQ
DOC Foxer - production on “Astral Furnace”
burnt-feathers - lyrics, vocals, and production on “The Noontime Bagel”
burntfeathers.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/2s8glWSpBBQ4xzG3oOhJWh?si=7EDBrtE0Rb29_f3betIQdQ
Sakura Pups - lyrics & vocals on “As Shrimple As That”
terraeyes.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/24ZkEZzQgxsWrzLX7hYH6B?si=3-cx5gA4TpS6n5gDzqjDPA
Alluce - lyrics & vocals on “As Shrimple As That”
alluce.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/0ReZ9dxiVCnc1NkBKCWMjz?si=8_YyfMrwS-mr2GOUwvnESQ
ded ihn uh hul - lyrics, vocals, guitar, production on “All Vows”
dedihnuhhul.bandcamp.com
open.spotify.com/artist/21cY1QmJQ7tgUqslwhzzVq?si=BsqYq4jUSC6n1n6oHczc7Q
switchblade_romance - Album artwork
www.instagram.com/switchblade_romance/
**SPECIAL THANKS TO***
Garry B - helping me with various mixing and Reaper questions and being such a swell fellow
Meredith (Lil Intro Vert) - For the album title and being the first person to ever give a fuck about SoS
ramona cuervo - for their undying support for SoS, helping with vocals, and the teaser video. The greatest unofficial band member i could ask for
Vex Composure - For giving me critical advice on my mixes and being a wonderful supportive friend
My Fiance - For putting up with the long hours i have put into this thing over the past several months
Big Money Cybergrind & Static Ritual Recordings - for being the two best labels supporting Cybergrind and DIY extreme/experimental music
ZOMBIESHARK!, Fire-Toolz, Blind Equation, Bejalvin, Rolo Tomassi, Sakura Pups, Woundlicker, FLCOY, Strawberry Hospital, ded ihn uh hul, Alluce - for being endless sources of inspiration for this album and SoS as a whole
Dedicated to: My cats, Chloe, Bunger, and Moogle. You three remind me that the world is not as cold as it seems <3
